Fear and loss
I’m scared to move because I think I’ll lose him. But I’ve already lost him. Staying won’t do any good. But I think leaving will do even less.
He says maybe the space will do us both some good. That maybe we can work it out. He still loves me — and as importantly, still shows it.
I want to believe. But i can’t.
I’ve lost him. He doesn’t know it yet. But I’ve lost him.
[Apologies y'all for the plethora of personal posts. But I need to work through stuff.]
Fear and loss…
I’m scared to move because I think I’l……
Go ahead and vent, get it out. As long as it makes you feel better.
I agree, it’s sounds like space may do you all some good.
eh, i think space will kill our relationship entirely. i mean, it’s pretty close to dead now. it just hasn’t done the final death rattle.
but moving? i think moving will just be the end. it’s not how i want it. but i think that’s how it will go. and while it hurts, i’m slowly making peace with The End.
Tiffany dear,
If you feel you’ve lost him, you have.
Trust in your own feelings. Trust yourself.
No matter how hard it is, it will be a hell of a lot easier to work with the reality of loss (if that is the reality), than with the delusion of hope.
Space may do some good either way as it will take away some of the daily confrontations with *what* and *who* you’ve losed/are losing and it will give you space to think about your future with or without him.
Hug, Juliette
Any chance you could take a short vacation somewhere? A weekend away (not running away…) might be what you need.
Love ya, babe.